Fall feels cozy to me as I put on fuzzy slippers and a hoodie to go out for stargazing and planetary meditation while there’s a chill in the air. Another lovely fall meditation is making spiced tea from scratch. I converse with the spices like I do the planets. They share their secrets and sensuous enjoyment of life.
1 gallon of water
2 tsp black peppercorns
2 tsp whole cloves
4 tsp cardamom pods – crushed open
2 oz fresh ginger root – sliced
6 cinnamon sticks
Boil for a few minutes then add 1 tsp of black tea and let steep for a few hours. Strain and serve (honey and soy milk is my favorite). Store the tea in the refrigerator for up to 5 days. Freeze the used spices as you can use them to make another batch of tea with half the amount of water (half a gallon). Enjoy!
Check out the asmr video of this meditational sound journey on YouTube.
Looking into the full moon as it hangs out with Saturn – literally since they woke me up at 1:47am this morning and kept me awake for an hour – I find a new perspective on my own natal chart. My map for the possibilities of this life.
For most of my life, I’ve tried to logically fix or detach from my emotions. I was definitely given this skill at birth and then had to hone it when I was young. Emotional nourishment was never something I really understood nor even thought I deserved. It was for the weak and I was not weak.
Seeing my peers being in loving friendships made me jealous, angry, and judgmental. I wanted what they had but was certain I could never have it as I didn’t deserve it and I never learned how to do it. But I wouldn’t admit that. So I detached and pretended not to need it.
Such a painful way to live for a tender, developing heart and mind.
Many of my relationships ended up being about power, control, and ownership. Thinking about it now saddens me and I grieve for the many depths of connection and love I missed out on.
So where do I go from here?
I will find compassion for my past self and my experiences by maintaining a connection to something beyond, something greater. As I do this I also become more able to hold a compassionate kind space for others.
I acknowledge my skill of detachment and accept it as a truly brilliant way of protecting myself from terrifying situations. Situations that were threatening or caused me shame for not knowing how to do something.
I see myself now and in the future giving what was withheld from me by others and my own fears. I shift my perspective to see the benefits of both aspects of my experience and I welcome all of me into the now.
I make a promise to myself to allow my skills of protection to activate in truly threatening situations while encouraging my nourishment abilities to flourish at all other times – even when it’s challenging.
Today, my early astrological meditations brought this to me. I thought it would be fun to see if anyone could guess which planet shared this with me and what sign (constellation) that planet is in.
Whomever gets it correct, will be entered into a drawing for something cool. Perhaps an astrological divination treat! Put your answer in the comments on my blog post at vbmedley.com! Here goes…
I drop to all fours
clenching the soft earth.
I grind my teeth
yearning to press forward.
A battle cry chokes
in my dusty throat.
They watch and wait.
More patient than I.
I breathe and bide my time
knowing this moment of
struggle will pass.
In the meantime I crawl,
carrying my ember
safe above the ground.
Slowly I shift and plan
The winds will arrive
*spoiler alert* the answer is…
Mars in Taurus! Especially at the beginning just after leaving the high of Aries. Nobody got the full answer correct this time but there will be other riddles in the future 🙂🤘🖤